Aww hi babes and assholes ! Im back to blogging (: aww . This few days were quite fun . But there were somedays which was kinda fucked up . I guess . At least i guess it turned better after a few days . He told me he was okay with me . And i told arnold about everything i felt like those few days . So relieved . Thank him alot ah . Today went out with eugene . Met him in the morning . His earhole infection . T.T see liao also pain sia . Ouchouch . My second left earhole still ok . Luckylucky . Hmm . I really hope i can change you know . Everything is so different now . Every body is looking at me in a different way . Really different way . I miss the old us . The old everyone . I miss my old self . Ah fuck this . Kay im done right here . Bye .

Labels: I miss you .

Ok . This few days were disastrous , the last time i blogged was a few days ago . Ok yesterday i stayed up late to wish him happy birthday in every way i could . But before 12 rc called me and told me someone wanted to be the first to wish him . But i was thinking i'll send after few secs after 12 . So i waited than i sent . I know i wasnt the first though. But at least i made an effort to text you line you , path and twitter ohh yah and called you . And yeaterday i was fucking drunk . Drink and i didnt know what i was doing . I feel damn bad . But ah it's just one day i guess . Today morning i text you . At first the convo was going well .until when i guess she started texting you . She was more entertaining than i was . So our conversation turned to shit. Nevermind than i know you're happier with her . I told you i didnt like you . I made you let go . Yet why do i fucking care so much . Idontknow . You have her . Yet i have no one . No one could be there for me like you . Once . I miss it . I know it's impossible cause when she comes in , everything of ours becomes sour . I must admit i miss those memories . Even though every night our conversation would end up like shit . I miss those silly retarded conversations we had though . I just couldnt lose you . Not now . I finally open up to you trust you all in the end i lost you like nowww . Shit lah . Thigs always happens at wrong timing . I miss you . But i know that we're different now . The old you wouldnt be back . I know it . I know you wont read this blog anymore . So im posting this thing here . My blog has been dead like forever . So noone knows this . But yeah i hope this feeling of emptiness would just go away soon . Really soon . I lost not only a text buddy , soon bestfriends good friends than friends than strangers . Want bet ?! Fuck lah . All i know is to hurt someone and fucking let them leave me . Once i did that to my brothers than my family than now you . I lost my brothers almost lost my family and now you . I had lost enough friends i have lost enough important stuffs and people in life . Just not you ok ? Ahh forget about it you wouldnt come back . So sad right now . But in the end it's all my fault afterall . I guess tomorrow i'll just enjoy myself by drinking everything off me . I can't take it anymore . I wantto get drunk . Tomorrow just have fun . And im done . I just want to fucking die . You know what i need now is a friend and trusted friend to talk to you know . I fucking cant take it anymore . I want to burst out in tears you know. You said you wanted a memorable kiss on your birthday . Actually i wanted to but thinking of her make me hold it back . Please God bless me for once more .

I miss my dad . I havent seen him for five months . I miss him . Alot . At least when he's back i dont only have my mum . I have my dad at home too . I'll make and effort to stay home more . And not get out of my house . Every one have their dad at home . Why cant mine be at home . Im lack of daddy love . Hmm . I guess i'll just end this here . If you see this . I guess just think that im alright and fucking ignore this bitch . Bitch as in me . Im an asshole i agree . Kk ending this here bye .

Labels: Lost everything .

Hey (: i know there's like only one person reading this blog but yeah its alright . Ok so this morning i got scolded by hitler for laughing at lim's face . Damn and i had to stand in the middle of the class . Dafuq . Than he aim me with my results. I improved already ok ! Than chemistry lesson i was darn dizzy and had a major headache . I dont know whats wrong with me . Hmm . Than after that physics teacher had a chitchat session with us . She's damn awesome alrights . Than recess than two more lessons . Than afterschool learn the line dance than taught the others . Mrs wendy low was funny but yet she threw my earsticks away again . Fuck irritating know ! Ah stupid ass teacher . Fuck my life im darn tired rght now . Yet still blogging . I didnt see him today ._. Hmm . Lol . Expect less disappointments lesser to . I shall end this post right here . Im so gonna sleep soon . (:

Eugene leong : hi ! Lol ! Im bored . You this ungentlemen gentlemen . Haha ! Kbye .

Labels: What could possibly be wrong .

Ok . Tired . Exams are over . I passed all subjects except , humanities and amath ): damn . I could have worked harder for humanities . Feel like doing a cover with mikael , payphone - maroon 5 . It'll be so damn cool . But i swear there'll be loads of dislikes if i really post it . Exams over , party time . But not in the party mood yet . This few days seems like a few weeks so many things have happened . Oh yah , one last thing fuck promises . I think now's the time i should concentrate on my studies , and put relationships aside . But afterall . I'll be having a camp next monday to wednesday . Swear i'll be god damn tired . I really hope this time it would be really fun though . I miss my ex-classmates alot . Haha ! Oh yah one last thing , to those friends who didnt really get the grades they wanted to have . I'll pray hard for you the next ca ! God bless you guys . (: cheer up ! There's nothing big about failing though i have been failing all my way thru sec three till now (: CHEER UP GUYS ! <3

Labels: One more fucking love song i'll be sick .

Fuckyeah . Back to blogging . Seriously , every single thing that happens nowadays are fucked up . Especially the fucking society . People suck up to bitches and become bitches . Ohyah . Im speaking about you bitch . Yeah you . I swear nowadays blogging isnt really that fun anymore . But i need somewhere to freaking rant things at . This blog might be dead but it may come alive in just a day . I swear relationship problems aint easy to handle at all . I guess thats what teenagers must go through right ?! Kay fuck . Im gonna end this here . Bye .


Ohh hey bitch . Listen here . Im not those girls who's gonna fucking find you problem cause you not happy . You not happy come find me yourself . Bitch . Grow up . You've havent change a bit . Still as immature as ever . Still a follower a dog . You shall die .😁