Ok so today was darn tiring I don't know why . You know something I'm so afraid to face you . I feel so bad still . Made you torture yourself , cause of my selfishness I only cared about my feelings all . But not yours . That's why I had to just do anything to not face you . But the problem is I want to see you . I guess everything was just not meant to be . Again . This time round I've learnt my lesson . Love just can't be forced . Can't be tamed . People might just be your closest in the next second the one who you thought you knew but turn out to be someone you didn't know . I'm confused still . Why aren't we friends . You said you wanted to be as close as before it's impossible now . I just can't take this anymore . I have to let go . If not I'll be suffering and you'll be enjoying your life with someone else . I thought you'll never leave me I guess I was wrong . Really wrong . Hmm just saw your hand with her name . Lol you guys are getting tgt again huh ? I guess last long . I will still be there for you . But it's just , if you want me to . Hmm I guess I'll end this here . This flashbacks came back and it's killing me I guess I have to sleep . Good night peeps . <3

Families getting so much better and things I hope will get better soon . Those bottled wishes , I hope they'll just stay in the bottle , and one day when it's the right time , the wishes will be fulfilled !

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So it's been so long since I blogged . Hmm I watch bones today .

It said humans were actually born with four legs four arms and two faces . Zeus was threaten to split us into half . So we have to spend our whole lives to find the other half . I just can't stand it . When everything ends up like this . I know you might not be the one . But I guess I don't deserve you . You're so perfect . You deserved a better girl . You're someone I thought I'll never loved . But in the end I did . I didn't expect to meet a guy like you . I guess everything is over even our friendship . From strangers to strangers again . I love blogging I really hope this blog will be active . I'll start blogging more often . (: Hey boy , I'm happy I met you . I happy that I know that you once loved me . I'm happy that we were once so happy together . I'm happy that we share some happy memories together . It might not be happy to you . But it's happy enough for me . You left me . You've got her now if I'm not wrong . I don't expect us to be Like the last time anymore . I just want us to be friends again . Just start afresh. . Like the last time , instead this time round I'm the one who likes you , and you're the one who doesn't care . I really want things to start afresh . If you want to ask me how important are you deeply in my heart you weigh a zillion pounds . And the more you walk away from me . The more I'm suffering the more I'm in torture . But it's alright I deserve this . I deserve faking a smile everyday , cause I made you suffer before the other time letting you see me loving your best friend and wanting you to act like nothing is happening . I took you for granted I regret . But you're someone I really don't want to lose . You're someone , really someone special to me . I wished I didn't exist . So you will have one lesser person to hate . I'm happy when I see you smile . I'm happy really happy when I see you're happy even though I'm not the reason for it anymore . I love you . I really do .


I guess that's my love life . Now my family is getting better . I guess I'll just end it right here . Bye .

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